wanna hear something disgusting?

I threw out a bag of vomit today, after it had been there for over a month. Lovely, isn’t it.

also, mum has mentioned to me that there are dirty dots all over the sink in the bathroom. She thinks that It’s my sister’s new boyfriend, not cleaning up after himself.
But it’s me not doing good enough job cleaning after I have vomited. 

I’m having a breakdown on the street, I don’t have my razor blade with me cause I misplaced it last time.
I don’t know how to deal with my emotions, I need to get away. I don’t have time for this. How to make it better ?

I’m going to cry any minute in the fucking mall, I’m so tired and stressed

mum saw me weighting my food.

I just feel so stressed about eating and I wanted to have a salad so I wouldn’t feel more urge to binge and purge. 

She told me I’m too young to do that.

She also yesterday mentioned that I’m happy…..at least I should be cause I have everything I want.

Dear mummy, I wish you wouldn’t be so blind